introduction - first kill the cop in your head

The world is full of ideas. Each day is filled with new observations and realizations, from small to large, whether we really pay much attention to them or not. The everyday reality we experience offers so much impulses and information that there are practically infinite number of ways to examine and combine our thoughts and experiences to create different synthesis. In other words we live in a vast sea of ideas and possibilities.


Creating in one form or another has always been an important outlet for me. A way to examine the world and rearrange my experiences, first primarily with writing and later with images and sound. Yet I often find myself struggling with the feeling that the ideas and observations I have are just not good enough or don't have the potential to merit a more detailed examination. For years now most of my ideas have stayed just as they are - ideas, slowly decomposing in the Immateria. My internal critic has a very cruel eye and it seems to be doing me a big disfavor.


So I've begun to wonder, where does this critic, this brain police come from and what nourishes it, what kind of mental soil does it thrive in? And more importantly: what could be done to challenge it?


In introspect it may be easier to shoot down ones own ideas than to go about producing them - it allows a back door to slip quietly out of instead of facing the reality of dealing with them. It may also be the cultural climate and ecology that we live in, the fast food culture of consuming images, text and sounds. The amount of audiovisual material that surrounds us every day is also so massive that at times it seems to eradicate any meaning it might have. It's all just noise, and very little signal. Contributing to that often just feels useless.


But in the end, all of the above are really just excuses. The critic has to be dealt with.


This is why I'm starting a project of creating a new work of images and sound each week, over a period of a year. This challenge ought to eradicate the mental blocks and clogs I have accumulated in my system for one reason or the other. Having a constant deadline will not leave time to worry about whether I'm sweating out shit or gold.
As the old saying goes "first kill the cop in your head".


This blog will serve as a platform to show the work I'm producing (along with Vimeo) and as an outlet to write about my experiences and thoughts. A new piece will be uploaded once per week, starting soon.

Who are the brain police?